Thursday, January 7, 2010

Chariots of fire

A dear friend reminded me today that I have a blog... I sometimes forget. (and other times I am simply ashamed that this blog has not gone anywhere near to the direction I had initially hoped. Oh well, gotta roll with the punches, I suppose)

It is nearly two hours past when I would normally be asleep on a work night but I cannot seem to get my eyes to close and my mind to rest in peace. I can't bring myself to crack open the Scripture that is growing dusty on the bookshelf next to my bed. Is it that I cannot handle the intensity, conviction, and implication of intentional living that spills from its pages? Am I ashamed of my perpetual failure to love the Author and composer of the words? Or am I simply a fleshy being who is so caught up in my own head that to peek outside of it means being blinded by the light?

I don't understand it. I don't understand myself. I don't really understand anything. One thing I am trying fervently to understand however is prayer. What is our role in prayer, what is God's role in prayer, and what is the role of prayer in salvation and sanctification? As usual when it comes to topics such as this, I feel that if I can begin to grasp the basics of it and begin to tear down the mysterious walls and mazes in my mind, I will finally be able to love God and pursue Him wholeheartedly. I understand intellectually that this isn't actually true, but it certainly is a romantic notion isn't it?

Anyways, to get back on the original intentions of this post, I stumbled across this article (oh the wonders of google) the other day whilst trying to do a little research and I wanted to share. to get the whole article in context just click here. Enjoy.



God's royal power appears in his control of history. 'The LORD foils the plans of the nations; he thwarts the purposes of the peoples. But the plans of the LORD stand fast forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations' (Ps. 33:10,11).

The prophet Elisha prayed that God would open the eyes of his servant to see the chariots of fire that surrounded the besieging troops of Syria (2 Kgs. 6:17). Those who oppose the purposes of God are always outnumbered and overpowered. The prophet can pray with confidence to God as the Lord of history, and can proceed to capture those sent to take him captive.


The deeds of God that both invite and answer prayer are, above all, his deeds of deliverance and salvation. God hears the cry of enslaved and oppressed Israel, and declares to Moses in the desert that he has come down to deliver them and bring them to himself (Exod. 3:7,9). The exodus deliverance is God's answer to the groans of his chosen people. Yet here, too, God's answer both exceeds and precedes their prayer. Enslaved Israel is far from praying effectively for deliverance: the cry that comes to God is more the groan of affliction than the plea of faith. Moses, embittered by his own abortive attempt to champion the cause of Israel, is far from seeking God's commission to deliver them. Rather, he angers the Lord by his reluctance to accept the charge that God thrusts upon him. God promises deliverance because he would be faithful to his own promises, the promises that he made to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob (Exod. 3:6,13,16).


-EP Clowney

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Right now its 5:15AM in Sudan

My truck is old. I have no radio. I drive an hour to work at 7:00 every other morning and an hour back. This morning my phone and my ghetto ipod were dead. I had no choice but to be my own radio, or to make the hour long expedition in silence.
Since I started this new job about two weeks ago I have been adjusting from four days a week with no classes, no responsibilities, no agenda, to zero days a week with no classes, no responsibilities, no agenda. Not only have I fallen depressingly behind in school work, but I have also truly struggled to find time to indulge my mind and my spirit in the praise and discovery of God. I certainly still read extensive theological works, and am reading through the Old Testament for Old Testament, but it is all academic and my soul sometimes cries out for the restoration of this indulgence in my Father.
I always fear a little bit that unless I am 100% diligent in my intimate study of the Scriptures, I am going to fall away into blithering mess and self loathing at my lack of ability and discipline. Jesus is so amazing though. He intercedes constantly on my behalf that I may experience alleviating grace from the wrath of a perfect and just God.
This morning, in my forced silence, I got the 'brilliant and innovative idea' to pray while I drove. Who's ever heard of that right? Alone time in your car... how does that connect to prayer?
Yeah, I am a little slow.
This morning though, man... it was the greatest and longest conversation I have had in quite a while. (and by that I think I mean ever.)

Try praying in your car. You may realize that those crazy machines are good for more than just going.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Don't waste your life.

I don't want to be seventy and looking back on my life and have to face the fact that I did nothing for the Kingdom. I don't want to think "I wasted it." How much anguish is there in those three words.

http://dontwasteyourlife.com/

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Active Love

School has been absolutely crazy and I find myself having very little time for blogging, but that is not to say that I have lost the desire to do such.
Right now I am reading The Dicsipline of Grace by Jerry Bridges. It has been an excellent tool of conviction, grace, and hope in my life right now and I wanted to share a passage that provided an abundant amount of all three of those things listed above:

Positive character traits and active love:
(This is 1 Cor. 13 as action statements)
  • I am patient with you because I love you and I want to forgive you.
  • I am kind to you because I love you and I want to help you.
  • I do not envy your possessions or your gifts because I love you and I want you to have the best.
  • I do not boast about my attainments because I love you and want to hear about yours.
  • I am not proud because I love you and want to esteem you before myself.
  • I am not rude because I love you and care about your feelings.
  • I am not self-seeking because I love you and want to meet your needs.
  • I am not easily angered by you because I love you and want to overlook your offenses.
  • I do not keep a record of your wrongs because I love you, and 'love covers a multitude of sins.'

The topic of humility is referenced almost forty times in the New Testament, yet how much time and effort do I put into growing in humility? It is far too easy to grow in pride as you grow in wisdom, and it is almost impossible to see self-righteousness within ourselves. Perhaps it is time to take the sins of pride and self-righteousness and lay them before Christ and pray fervently for humility and grace.