tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61509685759925649182024-03-05T05:31:38.534-08:00I am Maraand this is my experiment in living.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-78039306465416776652010-11-13T14:33:00.000-08:002010-11-13T15:00:03.065-08:00You know to not stay at this hotel when:It has been a while since I've written something that accentuated anything except how characteristically dark my personality is, so here goes nothing.<br />
This post is a bit of an ode to travel sites that don't give you quite the whole story about that hotel you just booked. You see, My family took a trip to Virginia for the weekend and needed someplace to stay. The logical 21st century progression of events ensued and my dear mother booked a room on travelocity, or expedia, or some other wittily named website that is supposed to save you money and make everyone happy. The problem with this scenario is that (insert name of witty website here) lied. (Disclaimer*** this entire situation could have been user error but I'm trying to give my flesh and blood mother the benefit of the doubt.) This hotel is not a 4 star beauty with all the modern amenities a girl could need. (Again, I have no idea if that's what the description for this hotel said, and I haven't been able to check for reasons I will expound upon later, but again, I'm giving my mother the benefit of the doubt that the description was something marketable and charming.) Here is a list that we composed of five things (all of which have happened to us within the last 48.5 hours) that may make you desire to move your reservation elsewhere.<br />
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1. You pull into the parking lot and see no other vehicles in sight. This is fine for midafternoon, since people are checking out and checking in and, well you get my point. This is not fine, however, for the late evening/night. If no one else is staying at this hotel, it is probably a pretty good sign you shouldn't either.<br />
2. There are people painting the trim of the building purple and orange as you pull up to check in. I don't care what anybody says, purple and orange look ridiculous by themselves and tripley ridiculous together.<br />
3. You have to ask for help getting your door open every time you "come home" because there seems to be some trick to getting the card and the machine aligned just perfectly.<br />
4. The Internet is perpetually down. (this is the reason I still do not know what the description on the website said, though making this list has made me even more curious.)<br />
5. There are NO other cars in the entire parking lot. I just felt the need to reiterate that because it is KEY to how totally sketchy this place actually is.<br />
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Ok, I am finished now. I had quite an urge to let the darkness within out and rant a little about American expectations, but I contained that monster. (You're welcome)Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-70746406909181551432010-11-07T17:08:00.000-08:002010-11-07T17:09:11.352-08:00Two in one day... WowI stumbled upon this whilst working on a paper and felt a desperate need to share:<br />
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Instead of the accustomed idea of a mindless and endless evolutionary change to which we can neither add nor subtract, I shall suppose the universe guided by an Intelligence which, as Aristotle said of Greek drama, requires a beginning, a mi</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif;">ddle, and an end. I think this will save me from the cynicism expressed by Bertrand Russell before his death when he said: "There is darkness without, and when I die there will be darkness within. There is no splendor, no vastness anywhere, only triviality for a moment, and then nothing."</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">3. I shall not fall into the falsehood that this day, or any day, is merely another ambiguous and plodding twenty-four hours, but rather a unique event, filled, if I so wish, with worthy potentialities. I shall not be fool enough to suppose that trouble and pain are wholly evil parentheses in my existence, but just as likely ladders to be climbed toward moral and spiritual manhood.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">4. I shall not turn my life into a thin, straight line which prefers abstractions to reality. I shall know what I am doing when I abstract, which of course I shall often have to do.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">5. I shall not demean my own uniqueness by envy of others. I shall stop boring into myself to discover what psychological or social categories I might belong to. Mostly I shall simply forget about myself and do my work.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">6. I shall open my eyes and ears. Once every day I shall simply stare at a tree, a flower, a cloud, or a person. I shall not then be concerned at all to ask what they are but simply be glad that they are. I shall joyfully allow them the mystery of what Lewis calls their "divine, magical, terrifying and ecstatic" existence.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">7. I shall sometimes look back at the freshness of vision I had in childhood and try, at least for a little while, to be, in the words of Lewis Carroll, the "child of the pure unclouded brow, and dreaming eyes of wonder."</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">8. I shall follow Darwin's advice and turn frequently to imaginative things such as good literature and good music, preferably, as Lewis suggests, an old book and timeless music.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">9. I shall not allow the devilish onrush of this century to usurp all my energies but will instead, as Charles Williams suggested, "fulfill the moment as the moment." I shall try to live well just now because the only time that exists is now.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">10. Even if I turn out to be wrong, I shall bet my life on the assumption that this world is not idiotic, neither run by an absentee landlord, but that today, this very day, some stroke is being added to the cosmic canvas that in due course I shall understand with joy as a stroke made by the architect who calls himself Alpha and Omega.</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right; vertical-align: baseline;">- Clyde Kilby</div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Helvetica, 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; margin-bottom: 18px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right; vertical-align: baseline;"><br />
</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-64440110662799331942010-11-07T11:02:00.000-08:002010-11-07T11:03:09.621-08:00A hundred Million PoundsIn my short lifetime I've not dealt too extensively with tragedy, and that with which I have dealt now resides in the portion of my mind dedicated solely to memories that feel as though they never happened. In the midst of the most real tragedy I've faced to date, I am struck by my backwards thinking. <br />
I feel so weighed down. Tied around my wrists are balloons made of all the shock, confusion, horror, sadness, anger, hatred, pride, hopelessness, and general depravity I am battling. My heart weighs a hundred million pounds, and my ribs are shrinking over my lungs. The waves of turmoil have carried me out to the depths of the darkest sea and I flail about, trying to rid myself of all of my lead balloons. My chest keeps growing smaller and smaller, and as I gasp for breath only water fills my lungs. I tell myself that if I could just get loose of these balloons, I could float back up to the surface where my lungs can become drunk on oxygen again. The more I fight against my bonds, the faster I sink into the darkness of despair. "I can kick back up to the surface," I tell myself again and again. "My savior is waiting there for me." It is to no avail. The sunlight has disappeared behind the murk of the leagues of ocean. Darkness envelopes my already hazy consciousness and my last glimmers of hope fade to black. That's where I found him. When I was beyond life and beyond death, buried in the deepest and darkest of oceans, sinking against my will, he drew me towards him and breathed new life into me. My waterlogged lungs were made to breathe again and my bonds held new meaning as the mechanisms that brought me into the arms of my savior. He's never untied them- these lead balloons- but they are no longer a bondage to me, for he has picked me up and carries me in the palm of his hand, that I may never grow weary in this world but look to the hope of spending eternity looking upon his face. <br />
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I had coffee with a good friend this morning (grande Americano with a pump of pumpkin spice) and though we talked about many incredible things, (he is one of my favorite conversationalists) I probably won't actually remember much of the conversation. I am positive though, that I will remember the color of the orange leaves against the perfectly crisp blue sky, and the way he squinted when the sun finally came up over the building behind me. I'll remember the shoes we wore and the glee I felt as we looked at the time and two hours had passed without us even realizing it. The taste of my next Americano will certainly elicit a similar emotional reaction.<br />
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Right now I am sitting next to a sunny window in the perfectly 1970's library, and my heart is so full of fondness that it will probably explode. I am a tiny bit afraid that if I get up from this chair, where all seems right with the world, that this moment will be over and lost forever. Then in a few months I will stumble across this post again, and the happiness and contentedness will flood back over me and I will be transported to that ethereal place of reminiscence.<br />
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</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-34496078923694829682010-09-23T07:54:00.000-07:002010-09-23T07:54:00.889-07:00JustifiedThat title is best read in a fun whisper, with a little Michael-Jacksonesque hand motion at the end. (Like the hyenas say Mufasa's name in Lion King: "Mufasa... oooohhh... Mufasa... oooohhh.")<br />
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I digress. I was reading in Job today. I started reading it because I was at a point in my life when I didn't feel like things could get any worse, and felt like I needed some perspective on that. Perhaps this is a bad reason to begin a study into a book of the Bible, but I did it anyways, and it has proven to be fruitful. (I mean, it IS the Bible, of course it is fruitful.) In chapter 32, a man named Elihu walks up on this scene of Job agonizing over his situation and his friends scolding him for the things he is saying. They tell him he is wrong, but they have no capability to correct him. Elihu flat out tells Job that he has been justifying himself rather than justifying God. (Insert a little bit of my seminary education here: justify does not mean to make just, but to declare just. So in Job justifying himself, he is making the claim that he is just, when in reality it is God who is just.) --That was a lot of justice--<br />
How deeply I felt the sting of that comment. Every word that escapes from my lips, and 97% of my actions are meant to declare me just. I am obsessed with justifying myself. I am addicted, consumed, engrossed, infatuated. I wonder how different my life would look if I were instead fixated on declaring God's justice, rather than my own.<br />
In two chapters, Elihu turns from rebuking Job and his friends, to declaring the glory of God and I am as excited as a kid who is about to get Lego Star Wars on Wii. For now, I shall contemplate the little bit of God that I understand and pray that my love for him will be radically grown and my justification will be Christocentric rather than egocentric.<br />
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(I hope this particular post does not reveal the true scatter-brainedness I am experiencing right now, but as I fear that it does, I apologize.)Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-6621116014637782752010-09-13T20:15:00.001-07:002010-09-13T20:15:08.017-07:00wha-wha-wha- what!?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #444444; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I am constantly tempted to get caught up in ego trips and pursue activities and fabricated futures that accomplish very little except my own gratification and pleasure. It is at this point that God then sits me down and strokes back the nausea that arises in my gut at my awareness that I will never be good enough to actually find pleasure in those things, and reminds me that he has provided a way out of that cycle through the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus Christ. He has paved a path for me that highlights him rather than me, and is so filled with purpose that my tiny little heart would burst if I could actually see all the ripples in the pond. The anxiety that I will never be the best crawls back into it’s hiding place in the dark corners of my soul, until I am ready to let those frivolous and meaningless dreams go. In the meantime however, I take solace in the knowledge that my way is futile, but God’s way is perfection. God is perfection.</span>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-57585843223474471152010-09-12T05:51:00.000-07:002010-09-13T05:21:55.448-07:00Start with DespairI'm reading John Piper's mini-book <i>When the Darkness Will Not Lift</i>, right now, and I just came to a passage that is becoming quite revolutionary.<br />
<blockquote>"Bunyan went home rejoicing when he saw this his righteousness was outside himself. It was Jesus Christ. I pray that this will be your experience too. Where should you start? Start at the easiest place for those in darkness. Start with despair. Despair of finding an answer in yourself. I pray that you will cease from all efforts to look inside yourself for the rescue you need. I pray that you will do what only desperate people can do, namely, cast yourself on Christ. May you say to him, 'you are my only hope. I have no righteousness in myself. I am overwhelmed with sin and guilt. I am under the wrath of God. My conscience condemns me, and makes me miserable. I am perishing. Darkness is all about me. Have mercy upon me. I trust you.' . . . The light will rise in your darkness in due time. God will hold onto you )Jude 24). You will make it. The glory is coming. In the meantime [and this is possibly my favorite verse] 'this slightly momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to things that are seen, but to things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.' (2 Cor. 4:17-18)"</blockquote>It's easy to try and find hope in myself. It's even easier to pursue some sort of intellectual enlightenment, believing that it will be my hope. The only deserving object of our hope is Christ, who was crucified and resurrected. All others will fall short, leading only to despair.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-30803350875164673302010-09-02T20:46:00.000-07:002010-09-02T20:48:31.408-07:00Confessions of a ...Today was an excruciatingly hard day. It was the kind of day that makes reality seem like a figment, and makes me absolutely resent everything that goes on within my mind. <br />
I feel like I lead three separate lives: one at school and etc., one at work, and one that really only exists in my head. They rarely coincide, despite the fact that I live all three in one day, and often even simultaneously. Today two of my worlds took shocking blows, right to the left eyebrow, and I've been left feeling nauseous and uncertain. The problem, however, is not really that I got punched in the face, because I am, by nature, a boxer. The problem arises in my attempts to address the ramifications of the shots, i.e, the blood dripping down my shirt. After the first hit I tried to get a little help stopping the blood and cleaning up the mess, but it was made infinitely worse. You see, the person I so eagerly pursued for help unintentionally (or maybe intentionally) elbowed me on the side of the face . (Now this analogy is getting confusing and beginning to fall apart, but I feel I must hold it together for the sake of my own security.) And this second blow crippled me. It ripped out all of my sanity and left me lying on the floor of an alternate reality. Nothing in the former reality was (or is) tangible, and this new reality is spinning in such a way that I can't get back up. My soul seems to hurt, and resentment for that elbow and its owner is quietly growing within me.<br />
I don't like leaving things without conclusion, but that is where I am left.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-12345259360651892512010-08-27T21:00:00.000-07:002010-08-27T21:21:17.781-07:00Certain nostalgic emotionThere is this certain nostalgic emotion that creeps up every now and then, when a cool breeze lifts my hair, or when my kids bring me acorns and ask me to "pop the hats off of them," or when I'm walking in the shade and catch one small sliver of sunlight on my face. This emotion is quite inexplicable, and to be honest, one I rather loathe. It all seems so lovely on the surface; those things listed above are a few of my absolute favorite things. They are also things that last only a second and then are gone, leaving me feeling achy- like I am grasping at straws. I was in the middle of one such moment today when something struck me. When we are resurrected to the New Earth, our deepest desires and cravings will be satisfied by intimate communion with the Son of God. We long for these manifestations of Christ's perfection, but the day will come when I will be in the presence of the creator of all of the beauties that constantly slip through my fingers. That day will be sooo glorious.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-47609277042692019612010-08-21T20:21:00.000-07:002010-08-21T20:21:55.535-07:00Two kids in a photograph.I was hanging up a photo today, of two kids I had photographed whilst in Africa. I paused for a moment to reflect on how unbelievably beautiful life is, and then realized something. The two kids in the photograph mean nothing to me, apart from the gut-wrenchingly-nostalgic emotional reaction seeing them elicits. I never had a relationship with them apart from the quick utterance of "sura? shukran," and I will never know what kind of men they will grow up to be, or even if they survive into manhood. To me, they really aren't people. They are subjects. They are representations of an innate urge to capture as much of the world as I can and stuff it into little 4x6 boxes. They are physical manifestations of my selfishness and all of humanity's inability to truly empathize within itself. They are reminders of my sinful desire to puff up my own ego through admiration of my art. Most of all, though, they are proof of how vast this world is, how complex the human race, and how small my cognitive abilities.<br />
I love this photograph. It is beautiful and I am proud of it. I am frightened and confused as to how some ink on a piece of paper provokes such a reaction within me, but I am amazed that God created us as such prodigiously complex beings who will never understand this earth from this earth.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-23807401815604509952010-07-18T21:08:00.000-07:002010-07-18T21:08:41.369-07:00TeresaLast year I was working in Africa with a humanitarian organization, and I met Teresa. I came to school in North Carolina and ended up bumping into her at church. It's a tiny world, yet vast and mysterious.<br />
Anyways, Teresa graduated from grad school this June, and since she didn't have any cap and gown photos from her prior two graduations, we did two very brief (like 10 minutes a piece) little sessions. (And yeah, it has taken me this long to edit them. Stop judging me now.) I wish she didn't have to return her gown, because I am now overflowing with ideas that feature that stunning face of hers.<br />
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I think you can probably guess what kind of music I'm into at the moment. I'm still researching lyrics, so don't judge me if some of them are bad. k? Thanks.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-41055776509462141152010-07-16T08:13:00.000-07:002010-07-16T08:13:35.023-07:00Originally intended Today I dropped my car off at the mechanic for the third time this summer, and after overcoming the fit of despair that threatened to overcome me at the realization we had no more potatoes that I could stick in the oven for a little starchy comfort, I resorted to another favorite cheesy snack. (In case you don't know, I adore anything that has a nice golden, crispy, almost burnt but not quite, cheesy crust. I love potatoes even more, but my ma keeps telling me I'll get diabetes if I continue to inhale them at the rate that I do, so I'm trying to cut back. Really though, don't even get me started on potatoes that have cheese on them, cause you'll regret it after about 30 seconds of my ranting.) <br />
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When I was in high school, I lived in a wonderful little town in Maine, and my sister and I would walk home from school and immediately pull some bread and butter out of the fridge. Events would then proceed in such a way that the frying pan grew weary and our outrageously lovely mother scolded us for consuming so much bread, but we would just sit back and pat our tummies and sigh at the glory and simplicity of fried bread and butter. My new favorite bready snack is substantially more healthy, since those old days were full of real butter and white bread, and the new and improved days usually contain "I can't believe it's not butter" and extra extra whole grain wheat grain bread. (In reality though, it may not be anywhere near healthier. I probably just tell myself that to stave off fears of growing pant-sizes and cankles. And yes, cankles is quite a legitimate fear.)<br />
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Butter (or I Can't Believe it's Not Butter) two pieces of whole wheat (or if you want to die an early death caused by your insides getting all gooped up, go for the white) bread. Lay them on some sort of oven-proof surface. I usually grab whatever is on top in the drawer. Put a VERY THIN layer of Dijon on each slice. I suppose you could use some other kind of sauciness, but I really love the flavor of Dijon with cheese. It's so.... tasty. Next, layer on a slice (or shredded equivalent. Whichever you have on hand is perfectly fine.) of your favorite cheese. Today I used some smoky sharp cheddar and a bit of mozzarella for color. I forgot to mention this earlier, but you should probably heat the oven to like 450. I don't usually look, I just turn the know until I feel comfortable.<br />
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Place those suckers (on the oven-proof surface) on the top rack. I think its better if you have the rack on the second shelf, but I haven't done enough experimenting to find out. Let them sit in that nice toasty sauna until the cheese is melted and bubbly and golden brown. If you're like me, you will probably slow the cooking process down considerably because you will want to marvel at how amazingly simple and perfect of a snack this is, so you will open the oven door to check the progress about every thirty seconds. (Patience has never really been a strong suit of mine.) If you have any willpower, resist this temptation and let your perfect little snack bask in peace in the warm red glow of the oven coils.<br />
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Indulge your fancy side, and avoid the paper plates. It will make it all the more enjoyable to pretend you have class.<br />
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Now see, the original intent of this post was to talk about my ridiculously injury prone car and how it's been seeing a whole lot of my mechanic lately, but I got so distracted by the food that I completely forgot all about my auto woes. Well done cheesy bread. Well done.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-87868884859891246282010-07-10T18:50:00.000-07:002010-07-10T18:50:27.148-07:00Embrace the Life you never planned on.<div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"> In my dreams, life is clean and events culminate according to my desires. Relationships are never one-sided or based solely on emotional frivolity, and mistakes are easily avoided. In real life, however, there are no clean edges. There is very little black and white, and a whole lot of mushy grey. Life is confusion and dirt. it's covered in ants and ambiguity. I am an imperfect being, surrounded by imperfect beings, in an imperfect world, yet I am constantly caught off guard when life gets a little messy and I can't seem to see through the grime to the sun shining above the clouds. </span></span></div><div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"> Today I was driving to visit some friends a few hours away, and I was reminded how consistently I take the journey only for the destination. Destinations are perfect and ideal, journeys are often rutted, wagon wheel dirt roads that require effort and energy, and a willingness to live in the moment. </span></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br />
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</div></div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><object height="225" width="400"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true" /><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always" /><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=10869606&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1" /><embed src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=10869606&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="400" height="225"></embed></object></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://vimeo.com/10869606">Death In His Grave (Performance Video)</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/johnmark">john mark mcmillan</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-43345902198445449802010-06-25T19:10:00.000-07:002010-06-25T19:10:30.326-07:00When the world was young<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">There was a time when the world was new. I am astonished and frightened at how easily time seems to slip through the cracks in my fingers, without me even realizing that a day has passed. Life seems like nothing more than a memory and memories are so intangible. I am enveloped in a daydream, sleepwalking through life, neither awake or sleeping. What happens to time after it passes? I cling to the few tangible representations of those times, as if they will prevent my ever-degrading memories from fading to death. The tattoos cut into my skin seem strange, seeing as their inscription is now only a fading memory in my failing mind. Why is there so much comfort in retrospection, even though what has passed will never be grasped again?</span></span><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I started out with some melted butter, added a little flour and milk to form a cream, and then some tomato paste, garlic, pinot grigio, thyme, cayenne pepper, salt and pepper. We finished it off with some caramelized onions and it was perfect.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Lindsey had an amazing recipe for some grilled potatoes, but the grill wouldn't get hot enough, so she roasted them in the oven. I think the topping for the potatoes consisted of Montreal Chicken seasoning and thyme, with olive oil, salt and pepper thrown in.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">If you know me at all, you know that potatoes are my absolute favorite food</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I eat them in any way, shape, or form that they come and could eat them for every meal. These were definitely no exception...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">In fact, I am eating them again tonight.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Thank you, Lindsey Collins.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHCgLNL4x0H9ga7c4-0RPIon0HIiadDxUYgOnhWZz6uwJg6656tus5AQsEaNzGc_4zsdSgArlWmEJ9GEYRM5fuKgz-6Y7kBl1Ask7z6CdGGis5foMiMaTZqSW7ZZ9bGnvnRiQ9vxtl32Y/s1600/Edits-8.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="267" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHCgLNL4x0H9ga7c4-0RPIon0HIiadDxUYgOnhWZz6uwJg6656tus5AQsEaNzGc_4zsdSgArlWmEJ9GEYRM5fuKgz-6Y7kBl1Ask7z6CdGGis5foMiMaTZqSW7ZZ9bGnvnRiQ9vxtl32Y/s400/Edits-8.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: left;">Actually, I suppose this is the final product.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Yum.</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-52118481549751674082010-06-06T18:30:00.001-07:002010-06-06T18:30:32.425-07:00Often, I fear, I am ruled by pragmatism rather than the Holy Spirit.Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-39699345219037947142010-06-05T14:17:00.001-07:002010-06-05T15:16:20.077-07:00I'm a chef!<div style="text-align: center; "><div style="text-align: left; ">Tonight I learned that when the recipe calls for 2 medium onions, use half of one.</div></div><div style="text-align: center; "><div style="text-align: left; ">For my family, for dinner I made some incredible mac and cheese, and Savory/spicy chicken drumsticks.</div><div style="text-align: left; ">Both recipes are from the <a href="http://thepioneerwoman.com/cooking/2009/07/hot-sweet-drumsticks/">Pioneer Woman</a> blog (I love her).</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdRWKCJirSWlaTNiaGFTz7pruzAdjLlbmrKnwdtAboCMt82x5sIEJufvu1-dS2nesNjEW_JmBVC6DedPHrAPJMcFfNsZ8gPECeggf2AHnz3JAls7J67mWjABoTOXh3dh9qE47s1In8_Os/s320/Edits-3.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479415043004350498" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 145px; " /></div><div>The Spread</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibO0knKmeJePjh-SAfHuoaoFR5NNu17oJYcNirUoCmvrNNz4AWy4qCuDiB1y9IPqXCL-EtEfRqTiAmPPcdp33kUH2KhwEz_23HFfQrJGM3Yra_HcvW438NH5WShECuO1TOirU-AJ1F4fE/s320/Edits-1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479413910900005090" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 213px; height: 320px; " /></div><div style="text-align: center; ">My amazing little brother helped out, then got bored and left.</div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj30Nms1k9qgoqp9ZW3gH2eYUQ531mJYwgNeh-PURiZrcLYY5IsCQ4SgosYrzmd8YAIjptBBPA5YRA3aXnpjtsSgZlHTvCtdf8B0kD2SI7L8FFO_RVhw-PUdF6RLJu3FP6UioODkiCPuv8/s1600/Edits-5.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj30Nms1k9qgoqp9ZW3gH2eYUQ531mJYwgNeh-PURiZrcLYY5IsCQ4SgosYrzmd8YAIjptBBPA5YRA3aXnpjtsSgZlHTvCtdf8B0kD2SI7L8FFO_RVhw-PUdF6RLJu3FP6UioODkiCPuv8/s320/Edits-5.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479415247917148866" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px; " /></a><div style="text-align: center; "><div style="text-align: center; ">The Mac and Cheese in all it's goodness</div><div style="text-align: center; ">(I ended up using some cheddar, mozzarella, muenster, colby,</div><div style="text-align: center; ">and then some more mozzarella.</div><div style="text-align: center; ">The top is sprinkled with goat cheesy goodness.)</div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0OhuplcS_FvJKH8QwmHM7Ybq4S_czY458XAk_fgNGTgIz6fcGG-GxPGvS2hj6cIJepNhHdwRZVp1IQ9SsOtZSY0cNKy7D1rMMYxJAcKK3nj9c_V6RqocjALXQaikVMLmuuypQ9aJrBuc/s1600/Edits-6.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0OhuplcS_FvJKH8QwmHM7Ybq4S_czY458XAk_fgNGTgIz6fcGG-GxPGvS2hj6cIJepNhHdwRZVp1IQ9SsOtZSY0cNKy7D1rMMYxJAcKK3nj9c_V6RqocjALXQaikVMLmuuypQ9aJrBuc/s320/Edits-6.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479416104216179122" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 213px; height: 320px; " /></a><div><div style="text-align: center; ">The chicken</div><div style="text-align: center; ">(I put it under the broiler for the last few minutes</div><div style="text-align: center; ">of cooking so that it would get nice and crisp and caramelly)</div></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; "><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYOY_72du2DYMGR516yWvTEXjbUNSkwK3N5YWKB7QIWdJ2cBHgfFLyjxVZ3J8cFs4EOm9WjpBpRIth2011Ijdt1JUikjCfeVmBX4D_Uge_aLBzM3SDuQSfkTUE4Bham0ixJ9CKipluVUg/s1600/Edits-8.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYOY_72du2DYMGR516yWvTEXjbUNSkwK3N5YWKB7QIWdJ2cBHgfFLyjxVZ3J8cFs4EOm9WjpBpRIth2011Ijdt1JUikjCfeVmBX4D_Uge_aLBzM3SDuQSfkTUE4Bham0ixJ9CKipluVUg/s320/Edits-8.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479416600600867218" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">Add a little buttered broccoli and you have the final product</div><div style="text-align: center;">(and yes, we eat off of paper plates. We are ultra classy.)</div><div style="text-align: center; "><div style="text-align: left; "><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0OhuplcS_FvJKH8QwmHM7Ybq4S_czY458XAk_fgNGTgIz6fcGG-GxPGvS2hj6cIJepNhHdwRZVp1IQ9SsOtZSY0cNKy7D1rMMYxJAcKK3nj9c_V6RqocjALXQaikVMLmuuypQ9aJrBuc/s1600/Edits-6.jpg"></a><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0OhuplcS_FvJKH8QwmHM7Ybq4S_czY458XAk_fgNGTgIz6fcGG-GxPGvS2hj6cIJepNhHdwRZVp1IQ9SsOtZSY0cNKy7D1rMMYxJAcKK3nj9c_V6RqocjALXQaikVMLmuuypQ9aJrBuc/s1600/Edits-6.jpg"></a><br /><div style="text-align: center; "><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span></div></div></div></div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-39686305913697692922010-06-05T09:15:00.000-07:002010-06-05T09:34:34.095-07:00I thinkI think it was Mother Theresa who made popular the idea that God does not give us more than we can handle, but I am beginning to think that He does. He allows us to come to the very brink of despair and then holds our hands as we plummet to our deaths. We die to ourselves and our notions and then, once we are past ourselves and have experienced more than we could ever have handled on our own, He picks up the pieces and forms them into a being more beautiful and like Himself than the broken one from before. (Of course, we see our new selves and believe that we had something to do with it, forgetting that five minutes ago we were desperate and plummeting to our deaths, and the cycle of despair continues.)<div>I think though, that if God did not sometimes give us more than we could handle, we would be fully convinced in our own minds that we are capable of living without Him. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>.wrecked by the gospel.</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-87111950181172352252010-06-04T15:45:00.000-07:002010-06-04T16:00:53.461-07:00My name is Mara andI have a sugar addiction. I hate to bake, and I am a horrible baker, but if it contains sugar and goes well with a cold glass of milk, I cannot resist. In case you don't believe me, let me lay it out for you. This morning I ate a cookie at breakfast time. (It wasn't for breakfast; it actually came AFTER breakfast). I then proceeded, in between breakfast and "lunch" to eat two brownies. The fact that I can't remember what I actually ate for lunch leads me to believe that I counted the bowl of Triscuits as an adequate meal. In the afternoon I steered clear of the kitchen and thus managed to avoid the tantalizing call of the baked goods, but then right around dinner I once again succumbed to the siren call and indulged in a cookie as the appetizer to my salad. I consumed the proper amount of calories, but my poor tummy is bawling for some veggies. This lack of busyness is leading me to inordinate amounts of sugar consumption. (insert a conversation about this form of consume and how it is not what it naturally seems like it should be, here). <div><br /></div><div>On the docket for tomorrow: Gym at 8, grocery shopping: commissary style, ??? </div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-32190855469252268682010-06-03T13:07:00.000-07:002010-06-03T13:23:34.922-07:00The PoolToday we went to the pool for the first day of swimming. Both of the indoor pools that we would typically frequent were closed for rennovation or training of some sort, so we decided on the Officer's Club pool. It was not lap swim hours, so we had to share the pool, but it turns out that the lifeguard at the pool is someone we went to high school with. She gave us some tips and taught Jessica how to dive. Through all of this, I discovered something very interesting: I am afraid to dive. I can jump from the high dive, and cannonball until the sun goes down, but there is something about putting my head into the water first that unnerves me. I even tried a level 1 sitting dive, and it ended in a belly flop. <div>After the pool we ventured to the sporting goods store so I could pick up a new pair of goggles, and was once again reminded that I KNOW NOTHING about swimming. I had to call a friend to even figure out what type of goggles to buy. It is definitely a pride blocker to recognize how inept I am at so many things.</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-80081468992232924102010-06-01T07:16:00.001-07:002010-06-01T07:33:33.811-07:00The saga of the gym snobsOne of my goals for the summer, well really my main goal for the summer, is to get back to the gym and beat my body back into submission. It is never as violent as it sounds, because I am actually quite the ninny, but I have a workout buddy to help me repress the wuss in me and do that last 15 minutes of cardio.<div><br /></div><div>This morning was my first morning back at the gym, and much to my elation (sike) the base gym that we frequent was packed. Typically there is a light dusting of Marine wives, trying to lose the thirty pounds they gained while their husbands were on deployment so they can feel confident for the homecoming. This morning, however, every cardio machine was in use (probably around 30 machines), the studio room had two consecutive classes going, and there was a line at pretty much every weight machine. The typical light dusting of Marine wives was now a thick layer of seniors, wives, and Marines alike. Intimidating for a first day back at the gym? Incredibly.</div><div><br /></div><div>My workout buddy had just started a new abs and butt routine that she attested was an excellent way to "get cut." I'm not so much worried about that as I am about losing the sophomore 70 I gained this year, but she is definitely on the path to "getting cut." She was a little afraid that butt workout would be kinda awkward to do in the main gym, so we waited patiently for the senior citizens spinning class to end so that we could use the studio. We walked in at the end of their workout and were met with icy glares from every bifocaled pair of eyes in the room. This is when I knew that we had encountered the gym snobs. The instructor scolded us with her eyes and muttered in an angry tone that the class would be over in a few minutes. We took our mats and scooted out the door. </div><div><br /></div><div>5 minutes later, the class ended, we picked up our mats and made our way to a corner of the studio. To our great dejection, we were met once again with threatening looks from a much younger, more hip (and ripped) looking group of moms in spandex pants. They, shocked that anyone would dare come in 15 minutes before their class start and try and use the room for some stretching, allowed us a corner as long as no one wanted to put their cycle there. Some words were exchanged between two of them that had something to do with "smart gym" and I knew once again what we were dealing with. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Tomorrow is our first day in the pool, and I am so excited at the prospect of pool snobbery. (sike).</div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-74945113441246984652010-05-30T17:24:00.000-07:002010-05-30T17:32:52.772-07:00First day of summerToday was the very first day of my summer vacation. My car isn't even unpacked yet, but it is highly possible that it will stay half packed until I leave again in July. <div>I made a quick switch from perpetual business and constant hanging out with friends to a whole day of pseudo-isolation. I think I need to get into a busy routine right quick or I am going to lose my mind. </div><div><br /></div><div>Plans for this week:</div><div>Monday- hang out with sister and brother-in-law, finish <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Notes-Underground-Fyodor-Dostoyevsky/dp/1420926896/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1275265853&sr=8-1">Notes from the Underground</a>, </i>visit a friend from high school</div><div>Tuesday- Swim 7-8, hang time with Lindsey, start <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Till-We-Have-Faces-Retold/dp/B002ZNJXUS/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1275265893&sr=1-1">Till We Have Faces</a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">, cook amazing food for my family</span></i></div><div><br /></div><div>Well, that's about as far as my plan goes... </div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-69716050978243586312010-05-26T21:14:00.000-07:002010-05-30T17:17:58.090-07:00Life is not about conclusions<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'times new roman';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I said goodbye to a lot of friends tonight, some for the summer and some for possibly forever. In the midst of one of these goodbyes I had a bitter sweet conversation about the conclusions we come to in life. I don't mean conclusions as in the end of things, but as in the ones we decide upon in our minds. Although now that I think of it, that is the end of things. Once we have formulated a conclusion about something, that is the end of the process of discovery. Those conclusions are set in stone, not because we are too stubborn to change our opinions, (though that is possibly sometimes true) but because we stop seeking truth and fervently pursuing knowledge. We lose our sense of wonder.</span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'times new roman';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Sentences have stopped making sense to me because they are just culminations of ambiguous words slapped together to make a point. God seems to become something finite that can be summed in a series of words that actually says nothing at all, instead of a perfect, holy being full of mystery and majesty, and beyond any culmination of words possible. Commandments are thrown out there by pastors and seminarians (usually following a format "If we see God as... we will ...," or, "Understanding of the Great Commission will lead to...") and the God who gave all law and commandments is overshadowed in our minds by the arbitrary conclusions we have come to. Relationships are torn apart over camps debating God's sovereignty and the end times and etc., and we forget that our knowledge of all of these things is minute and the conclusions that we draw about them are entirely unimportant when compared to the thirst for discovery and intimacy that God's perfection warrants. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'times new roman';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">That middle paragraph was a bit of a digressive rant, but the whole point is that there will be a day when all things on earth will reach a conclusion, but for now it is about the<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 5px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 5px;"> peregrination. Enjoy it.</span></span></span></div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6150968575992564918.post-40673493056988928322010-05-16T11:45:00.000-07:002010-05-16T20:53:26.867-07:00My new friend <a href="http://whatscookinmia.blogspot.com/">Anne Marie</a> posted this on her blog a few days ago and I thoroughly enjoyed reading it so here is my rendition:<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Georgia, 'Times New Roman', sans-serif;color:#008080;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 72px; font-size:small;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Georgia, serif;font-size:130%;color:#000000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;font-size:16px;"><br /></span></span></b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Georgia, 'Times New Roman', sans-serif;color:#008080;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 72px; font-size:small;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Georgia, serif;font-size:130%;color:#000000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;font-size:16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(41, 48, 59); font-family:Georgia, 'Times New Roman', sans-serif;font-size:13px;"><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">Outside my window...</span></strong> A thunderstorm is brewing. My God supersedes the weather.<br /></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am thinking...</span></strong> that in two weeks I will be leaving my home to spend time with my family. This is a strange reversal of the norm and another sign that I am growing up.<br /></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am thankful for...</span></strong> My beautiful friends who never cease to amaze me, call me out of my sin, encourage me, and show God's love to me. (And I'm also really thankful for the ibuprofen that cured my headache.)<br /></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">From the kitchen...</span></strong> today: <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">quesadillas</span> for lunch, Tomorrow: Indian style chicken for dinner.<br /></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am wearing...</span></strong>sweats... as per the usual.<br /><br /><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am creating...</span></strong> essay questions for a final exam. Fabricating is probably the most fitting word, however.</p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am going...</span></strong> to sleep for 2 straight weeks as soon as this semester is over.</p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am reading...</span></strong> <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Total-Church-Radical-Reshaping-Community/dp/1433502089/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1274067964&sr=8-1">Total <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Churc</span></a>h by Chester and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Timmis</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am hoping...</span></strong> solely in the glorious resurrection of Jesus Christ. <strong></strong></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); ">I am hearing...</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); "> Brand New, thanks to Jonathan and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Quinny</span>. I love the constantly expanding musical palette of my friends.</span><br /><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); "><strong><br />Around the house...</strong></span> What house? I live in a dorm... which is a mess. I did spend an hour scrubbing the bathroom today though, and it felt quite marvelous.</p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.6em; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); "><strong>One of my favorite things...</strong></span> Wind. and rain. that is two things, but I think that they are possibly the two coolest phenomena in the world. Air moves fast for no apparent logical reason, making leaves rustle and hair fly and water gathers up into the sky in great fluffy bunches and then falls down to the ground and makes things grow. Incredible.<br /><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); "><br /><strong>A few plans for the rest of the week...</strong></span> finals, finals, and more finals. Hopefully there will be some cooking and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">joviality</span> thrown in there somewhere.<br /><span mce_style="color: #008080;" style="color: rgb(0, 128, 128); "><strong><br /></strong></span></p></span></span></span></b></span></span></div>Marahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15592562548416706229noreply@blogger.com1